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My mid-year reflections



It is no doubt that this has been an extraordinary year. Not just because of the ongoing effects of pandemic bringing with all sorts of challenges and change to our lives, but also on a more personal level, 2021 has been a year of transition for me.


A year of big leap of faith.


I changed my country. I left my job and changed my career. I became a permanent resident of Canada. I got accepted to Social Work Master's program.


I feel like the ground under my feet has shifted and I am trying to find my new balance.


It feels like I am in between worlds, with a small carry-on allowance as I walk through my "second life".



As I reflect back to this extraordinary year, carefully think of what I want to carry forward in this little precious carry-on space,


As I keep working through the unknown, uncertainty, mental health challenges, loss and grief,


I owe heartfelt gratitude to so many people for making this journey, bearable, fun and easier.

These are the people that I chose to call my people, who have been there for me, in one way or another.



During these six months, I've listened to lots of talks, read lots of books and I feel like my soul has expanded through this momentous year.


And I experienced loss this year.

I lost some of my precious people either to death or leaving them behind.

As this year keeps unfolding and never ceasing to surprise me, I want to express my heartfelt gratitude to my companions in this journey.

We are all connected. And with you, I never feel alone.


Preeti, for getting me started on my immigration and settlement journey in Canada.

Hela, for listening and connecting me with resources.

Chandana, for being there when I needed it the most.

Shieh-chi,for generously reaching out to extend her wisdom along my way.

Fatima, Carla, Saskia, for doing truly inspiring work and making me feel at ease at my first interview.

Arturo, for being so generous with time and being so humble in the way you carry yourself.

Kristen, for showing us to slow down and tune to Elly.

Maria, for reminding me to apply for child care centers early.

Jennifer, to being a mentor about graduate school with kids.

Beste, for being very lively and fun to connect with.

Usra, for being very deep, open, and upfront about her truths.

Lily, for being very patient with us as we eased into the daycare setting again.

Zeynep, for being the most resourceful and kind person on this journey as I pivot.

Iris, for being so open & supportive to a total stranger, being a kind soul.

Diane, for believing me and helping me to prepare my pivot strategically.

Simone, for being so warm and kind about writing, science, parenting - even with the ocean in between us...


Jordana, for listening and reflecting so deeply, being my sounding board at stormy times.

Susmita, always making sure we laugh and listen. I love the silences & the talks. I am so glad you are with me.

Yunus, for showing up and making it fun & light-hearted. I am so glad you are still with me after all these years.

Fikriye, teaching me what love and care are. I love carrying you with me, wherever I go. I miss you and love you.

Rosa*, believing in me and making me believe that I can heal. I carry you in my heart. I miss you and love you.

Arda, for always, no matter what, being there, being with me. You are Amazing. and I love you.

Elly, for being you, never stop growing and having fun. You make me a better person. I love you.



With love,

Kumsal

June 22, 2021

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